Renmen

So have I mentioned that I leave in 5 days for HAITI??? I honestly can say that I cannot believe it. I cannot get my head around the fact that I get to meet and love on my sweet boy in 5 short days- which brings me to the one word I have somehow learned in French Creole- renmen. It means love. I plan on using it lots next week. I cannot explain to Bobby that someday, God willing, he will come home with me and I will be his forever mommy but I can still tell him and show him renmen. I look so forward to holding him, loving him and kissing him. What will it be like? Will I get the chance? Will we get any time- just us? Will they have to tranquilize me to get me to leave the orphanage... maybe...
I covet your prayers next week. Please pray for us all, that it is an awesome week and a safe week. Selfishly, I ask you to pray for Bobby and me. That we bond, that he feels something special with me, maybe that somehow he knows I'm someone special too.
Thanks.

Hearing from God but not Haiti

Well, what can I say... since I last blogged, I have heard QUITE clearly from God. Please allow me to just lay it all out for you. Last Sunday, I was feeling particularly down. I basically bawled my eyes out through the entire worship during church. I think during the rest of the week, I keep my mind so busy, I never let in thoughts of how things are moving, I just block it out. At church, during worship, it seems I can't keep it out. So there I am- boo-hooing. The sermon starts and my mom hands me her sermon outline which is titled "What to do while you're waiting." Seriously? Can God be this obvious???? Apparently He can! So Brother David delivers the perfect message for me on that particular day-
*don't assume waiting means a lack of activity on God's part
*try to find what God is teaching you
*pray and draw closer to Him during the wait.
How encouraging!
So for the last week, I've been okay, knowing that God continues to tell me HE is in COMPLETE CONTROL. He loves Bobby more than me. He is the one who brought Bobby to us, we did not find him on our own.
Today, He continued to speak. If you've been reading this blog, you know God is totally speaking to me through the story of Job. Today, Seth and I went to a fundraiser for an organization for which Seth is a board member. It was a celebration of their 20th year in service. At the end, we had heard that Nicole Mullins would be singing. I don't know if you are familiar with the song "My Redeemer Lives" but I LOVE that song. Rarely can I listen to it without crying. Today, she took the stage to sing. She began by telling us that when Job was being tested and was without his wealth or his family, he began to question God. God answered him by asking him "where were you when the heavens were created?" She told us that the passage in Job inspired her song- yep- "My Redeemer Lives". Good grief. She then sang it in a way I have never heard. It was unbelievably good. I cried and cried.
God is so good to continue to encourage and love me when all I do is look around but never UP! When will I learn to look up, when will I learn to- instead of telling God how big my problems are, to tell my problems how big my GOD is?? Maybe when I do, my sweet Bobby will be ready to come home. Maybe that is what I am supposed to learn. I am working on it, I promise!
And God--- I'm listening!

My Redeemer Lives
by Nicole C. Mullins
Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
And who told the ocean you can only come this far?
And who showed the moon where to hide till evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Chorus:
Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testifies
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives

Ye-e-eah
The very same God
That spins things in orbit
Runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know, my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I-I-I know
My Redeemer

He lives
To take away my shame
And He lives
Forever I'll proclaim
That the payment for my sins
Was the precious life He gave
And now He's alive and
There's an empty Grave!

And I know
My Redeemer lives
He lives
I know
My Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I-I-I know my Redeemer

I know
My Redeemer lives
*I know my Redeemer lives*

*I know, That I know, that I know, that I know, that I know
He lives
*my redeemer lives*
*Because He lives I can face tomorrow
He lives
*I know, I know*
He lives
*I spoke with Him this morning!*
He lives
*The tomb is empty*
He lives
*He Lives! I'm going to tell everybody!!*

Missing our boy

Tonight I am feeling a little sad. A team is leaving for Haiti on Saturday. While this is GREAT and hopefully we'll get more adorable pics of Bobby to keep us going, I had really believed that Bobby wouldn't be in Jeremie for the next group. I believed that he would be on his way home and would be in Port Au Prince with Dr. Bernard. We have gotten word that Bobby's birth certificate has been created. It is in Jeremie. Now someone in PAP has to make an extract (another form I think). Dr. Bernard then has to verify that the forms are legit and Bobby can move. This process is so amazingly slow. I know God has this whole thing in his hands. I know that, but tonight I'm still sad.
Please continue to pray for our sweet boy. Pray that he's fed, loved, safe, and that he gets moved just as soon as God wills it.
Oh and did I mention that the night I last posted- about Job and God's conversation- "where were you when I created the universe?". Yeah, that night as we read our "Read through the Bible in a Year" (which we are VERY behind on) guess what the passage was about???? Yep, you guessed it, the very same story.
Job 38- here is an excerpt:

2 “Who is this that obscures my plans
with words without knowledge?
3 Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.

4 “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.
5 Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
Who stretched a measuring line across it?
6 On what were its footings set,
or who laid its cornerstone—
7 while the morning stars sang together
and all the angels[a] shouted for joy?

8 “Who shut up the sea behind doors
when it burst forth from the womb,
9 when I made the clouds its garment
and wrapped it in thick darkness,
10 when I fixed limits for it
and set its doors and bars in place,
11 when I said, ‘This far you may come and no farther;
here is where your proud waves halt’?

12 “Have you ever given orders to the morning,
or shown the dawn its place,
13 that it might take the earth by the edges
and shake the wicked out of it?
14 The earth takes shape like clay under a seal;
its features stand out like those of a garment.
15 The wicked are denied their light,
and their upraised arm is broken.

16 “Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea
or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 Have the gates of death been shown to you?
Have you seen the gates of the deepest darkness?
18 Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.

Yes, I think that pretty much sums it up. God has this one. I just needed a little reminder and now I have it. Thanks God!

No move yet....

I can't believe it's already August! Time has really flown by. We received word back in July that Bobby would most likely move to the Creche in August. We have been praying fervently that God would place an urgency in the hearts of those who can get him moved. We are still praying....
While we wait, so many questions pop up. Why do we have to wait so long? Why doesn't God speed this whole thing along so we can get Bobby home and love on him? Does God want to teach us something first? Does God want to prepare Bobby's heart for us? Are we supposed to learn something during this process? I don't know the answer, but God does.
I still feel a peace knowing God is in control of this whole thing. I do tend to be a little negative from time to time as I have been known to do.... :) But really, just today I heard someone say that God said to Job "where were YOU

when I formed the universe?" Pretty good point here. Where was I? Probably off worrying about whether or not I'd get my tests graded for my 5th period class. Or wait, I wasn't even around! I am so small yet so important to the maker of it ALL! He cares for me and He definitely cares for our sweet Bobby.
And, have I told you my new verse? Honestly, I chant it over and over in my mind. It's Exodus 14:14- "the LORD will fight for you, all you need do is be still." What an amazing verse. That pretty much sums it up.
I'm going to bed now, but you can bet what I'll be saying while I'm lying there wondering about my little man tonight... be still,
the maker of the universe- the LORD - will fight for you!

Handing it over to Him

So to be honest, I've been down, depressed, negative..... about the waiting period that Bobby's move is taking. We thought in Febuary-March he would move over to New Life Link. Days have come and gone and there is no move, or word of any move for that matter.
Little pieces of information will come through, they would get our hopes up or make us worry. So yesterday, in a conversation with a friend, we were in a moment of worry. And through my friend, God spoke to me. Jeannie said that she and her husband had been talking. He said to her "You know when WE try to do it OUR way, things never work out. But when we do it GOD'S way, things ALWAYS work out perfectly." Could anything be more true? Why do I insist on worrying, thinking I can control things, thinking that I know more than God?

So for today, for now, I am giving this to God. I don't want it back. I don't want to worry anymore because I don't have to. God is our defender, our provider, our Father. He always comes through, always knows best, always knows better than me! He loves Bobby even more than I do.
I'm done worrying- God has got this one!

T-shirts are ready!

Ok, so we have really gone into fund-raising over drive here! :) Actually, Seth REALLY wanted a cool Haiti t-shirt and since he was making one he thought everyone else might want one too! They are pretty cool if I do say so myself. He ordered adult smalls-adult 2X. Let me know if you're interested. We'll get one to you! Thanks so much for your prayers and support!
By the way, to see it larger, just click on the picture!

Coffee anyone?

Did you know you can get great coffee and support an adoption too? We have set up an account with the company "Just love Coffee"- through their company, you simply order the coffee of your choice and they send us $5 out of every bag ordered. Cool, huh??
Here is the link. Thanks and enjoy!

http://www.justlovecoffee.com/Huber

More thoughts from Haiti....

So my last email may have seemed a little down. I think that is because my senses are on overload- all of them. I have obviously seen things I will never forget, but I have also heard things that are equally unforgettable. Like the kids at the orphanage quoting Psalm 34- all of Psalm 34. Hearing them sing Jesus love me in English and creole. I have been able try foods this week, that to say the least are interesting, and not a staple in American cuisine. Things like goat and conche (the thing in those big seashells). I felt the hands of the kids in mine, and the arms of the kids hanging around my neck, and their hands running through my hair to see what it felt like. These kids are so amazing in how they look out for each other, but also for us. Last night in our group share time, Mr. Frank talked about one of the kids told him he loved him. Then he asked if he could pray for Mr. Frank. The next thing Mr. Frank knew, he had kids touching him all over his body and little whispers as the kids prayed for him. I heard several stories of the kids offering their food to people and being amazing hosts. They zip your backpack so none of the other kids will take anything from it. They want you to sit with them while they eat. They are amazing.

I am also impressed with El Shaddai ministries, and the impact they are making in the lives of the kids. Many of the older kids will eventually move into their pastor training program. In the meantime, they are having the Truth poured into their lives.

That is for now, just know that God is up to something in Haiti.

Love you guys, and thanks for your prayers.
Seth

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News from Seth

So I haven't had a lot of time to actually try and put some of my thoughts down, but we have a little bit of free time this morning. The guest house we are staying in is about a 15 minute van ride to the orphanage. The roads in Haiti are terrible. Try to think of the worst, washed out road back home, and that is just about every road here. At night we go eat at a restaurant in jeremie, and we drive through jeremie. It is a city, so you think people would be going to work, or have a vocation, but the people just sit around all day. It is like they are waiting for something. Maybe something or someone to come rescue them, but someone never comes. Everyone walks everywhere. You will see an occasional motorcycle, but most people don't have those. On sunday, on the way back to the guest house, we dropped off a mother at her house. She had walked 45 minutes to get to church with a little kid in this ridiculous heat - on mothers day. But that is just part of the deal here.

One of the things that I have been struck by with the kids is how much they simply want to be held or just touched. They fight over the ability to hold your hand. Even the older ones. For the most part, they do a good job of sharing what they have or making sure that the little kids are taken care of. For the most part, they are happy. You will see some kids crying because someone they had latched on to had picked up someone else, and they became jealous. I do worry about Bobby because I doubt he is eating as much as he needs. I think they eat one meal a day. It seems like a decent amount of food, but bobby didn't eat any of his food yesterday. I imagine that happens a lot. The mommas can't really sit down and make each child eat their food. They are busy doing all the chores. Nothing here is easy. Think of all the things we can do with the flip of a switch. They have to manually do everything. They cook food in a room with fire and pots. They wash clothes in buckets then dry them on clothes lines or by putting them on the top of the houses. The mommas rooms are really not that different than the kids rooms in terms of comfort. Their brooms to sweep are made out of sticks and twigs roped together.
No air conditioning- ever.

Starting to rain again so I must go. Miss you guys terribly.

Love Seth

Sent from my iPad

Look at these two!

As you've heard, Seth is in Haiti. He is spending his days with Bobby, which is GREAT! Seth said that today they made real progress. Bobby would play, then call out "Seth". Seth would look around and Bobby would smile and hide. Then they would do it again. Seth showed him pics of Elizabeth and Sam. Seth said whenever he said "Sam" Bobby would smile big! How sweet is that?!?!
It really seems that doors are in fact being opened this week. Please continue to pray for God to move mountains!!!

Together at last!!

At about 5:45 tonight, Seth called!! He was just leaving the orphanage and had been with Bobby all afternoon!! He said Bobby was as cute and wonderful as everyone said. He said he talked the WHOLE time. He also said that he is TINY. He had Bobby on his hip the whole day and it was wonderful.
Seth has had the opportunity to meet several men at the orphanage. He met Pastor Lionel. We have been told that Pastor Lionel is the one who found Bobby after the earthquake.
I am continuing to pray for miracles this week. I know God can do things we cannot even fathom! Please don't stop praying!

On the way!

Seth just called- they are in Miami. They will spend the night tonight and tomorrow at 9:30... off to Port au Prince!! I am so excited I can hardly stand it! He is traveling with an amazing group. I know this is going to be a great trip.
Please join me in praying for progress. I am praying that doors (big, wide doors) be opened that would allow for Bobby's birth certificate and his parents' death certificates to be FINISHED this week so that his move to New Life can happen and happen SOON. I know God has a plan for this sweet child. It's is too hard to fathom that God would bring this child to us, lay him in our laps so to speak if it wasn't his good and perfect will.
Please pray that God would let big things happen this week toward the adoption.
Love you all!

Crickets...

I have been chastised by a friend for being a "slacker" for not posting for a while. I'm sorry, really I am. You know, when this journey started Erica told us it would be hard. That was and is more true than we could've ever imagined. We go for days, then weeks, then even months with no word at all. I am trying so hard to trust in God's perfect timing. His will not mine...His will not mine...

On a much brighter note, Seth IS GOING TO HAITI in 8 short days!!!! He leaves May 27 and he will meet our sweet Bobby. I cannot wait! He will be home on June 4. Please pray for his safety and that his time with Bobby is perfect. Also, please pray that God would make a way for some progress to be made while Seth is there. Pray hard!!! :)

And, you have heard me talk about the creche- the safe place, the home where Bobby will go when he gets tranferred to live until he gets to come home. Tomorrow night, we are going to a dinner to meet Dr. Bernard, the man who owns the orphanage and will help us get Bobby home. How cool is that? He is here for

back surgery. We, along with the other parents adopting from Haiti, will meet him tomorrow night. Feel free to pray about that too! :)

That is all for now. Please continue to pray for God's timing, for our (my) impatient hearts and most importantly for God's protection over our sweet boy.

Thanks! We love you all!

God is moving!

This has been such a great past few days.
First- you have seen several of the adorable pictures that Erica sent to us from Haiti. What a wonderful blessing!

Then, we saw Erica on Sunday. She told us several good things, among which are the mayor of Bobby's town is on board to help find his birth certificate and someone to authenticate that he is in fact an orphan. She said that he just might get to move over to New Life with the first group of kids. That would be GREAT!
She gave Bobby the goodies we sent. One pair of shorts we sent were too big (imagine that) so she gave them to someone they fit much better. She said he followed the child around saying "MINE" in French. LOVE IT!!!

And- my sweet friends and Elizabeth's precious friends "the Mallorys" have been praying for Bobby at night. Mallory prayed "for the person who was taking care of Bobby to do a good job." This has been a prayer of ours- that his "Momma" would love him extra and take good care of him. Now, those of you who know me well know that I am a little bit OCD about germs and cleanliness. (not that you could tell right now...) When Erica talked to us Sunday, she said that she noticed this trip that Bobby's Momma is one of the older Mommas there. She tends to him more than some others might. And that her house is the cleanest. Seriously, God even answers my crazy OCD prayers! How amazing!! It's just one more way that He shows me He is in control even when Bobby isn't home yet.



On a completely unrelated note, I want to share with you a miracle at our school. Our janitor, coincidentally named Bobby, is in need of $5000 to get his wife on the kidney donor list. Both of her kidneys are failing and she is doing dialysis 3 days per week. We decided to have a bake sale yesterday (Tuesday) to raise money. You know, bake sales are usually big money makers- like maybe $20-$30 right???? We had kids bringing in money left and right. We had a 7th grade and 8th grade boy who decided to put their Christmas and birthday money together for Bobby. They brought in $500!!!! Do you know that as of today our school has raised over
$7700 FROM A BAKE SALE!!!!!! If that's not a miracle, I don't know what is. We prayed and God answered!

I pray that God will show himself to you as He has to me! God is amazing, He is worthy and He is RISEN!

Love you and please keep praying for our sweet boy!

What a cutie!

Erica sent us this picture too. I think these are the sunglasses that Sam sent to Bobby. It brings a smile to my face every time I look at it. I know it will bring one to your's too!! :)

Grab a tissue!

I started off today a big sappy mess. How is it that your heart can be so torn, so happy, so sad and so full of love for someone you've never even met?
Our church is currently on a trip to Haiti doing Vacation Bible School at the orphanage. Erica, our adoption minister, took some goodies to our sweet Bobby. But, better yet, she took PICTURES!! She took these sweet pictures yesterday and sent them to us today. I have looked at these no less than 12,470 times today. I plan to look at them a few more times before bed. :)

Please continue to pray that Bobby will get home as quickly as God would have him. Also, please pray for his continued safety and for his little heart to be ready to come home!

Hallelujah!!!

We have finally completed our Dossier!! But the even better, much more exciting news is that a friend we just met hand delivered our Dossier to Dr. Bernard just tonight!!!!! Isn't that amazing?!?!
We have been waiting, waiting on our 171H to come. We got it today too!!

What a great day God has given us!

Please join us in praying for Bobby. As I understand it, he has to wait until his birth certificate is ready before he can move to the New Life Link orphanage. He will live there for close to a year before he is ready to come home with us. Please help us pray that God's timeline is upheld and that His timeline is quick! :)

How GREAT is our God?

We sent our paperwork to the Haitain Consulate in Miami last Tuesday. Seth sent it overnight. They received it Wednesday afternoon. This is known to be a 2-3 week process. We received our FedEx confirmation FRIDAY NIGHT that our paperwork was on it's way home. I decided it was either a miracle or we had messed up some paperwork. Nope, it was GOD. How amazing that He answers prayers even this small- paperwork... Our papers are finished! We are going to try and send them to Haiti with a friend of a friend on March 12. They will be hand delivered to the man who is in charge of the Haiti side of things- Dr. Bernard. Can you believe it??? How about the power of prayer!!!!!
Keep praying! :)

Waiting...

This is the craziness of adoption...hurry up and wait. We have gotten all of our documents together for the Dossier. We are waiting for our I-171H form to come. In the meantime, we are mailing our documents to the Haitian consulate in Miami for authentication. Most of our friends have sent their documents to Chicago and have gotten theirs back in a week. We have been told by several different sources to mail ours to Miami. We should get ours back in 2-3 weeks.
Please join us in praying for a QUICK turn-around in Miami. If we do get ours back in the promised time, our sweet adoption minister, Erica, is going to hand deliver our Dossier to Haiti. How cool is that!?!?!?!
After that, we will wait some more. I know God is teaching me something.... if I could just figure out what it is...  :)
Until then, here are a couple of other pictures of our precious little man!

more progress!

We got our appointment for getting fingerprinted in the mail today! This is another milestone. We'll go get our fingerprints as soon as we can then wait for the next form- 171H. We'll send some papers to the Haitian consulate and wait a little more. When we get ALL of this together, we send our Dossier to Haiti. These are the ONLY steps we have left to get our little man on his way home!! Keep praying!

Our son...Bobby

This has been an amazing week to say the least. I have been praying fervently that God would show us His will, that He would close or open doors showing us EXACTLY what He wants us to do in this adoption. Would we actually get two children or just one? Would it be two girls, two boys, or one of each? What would their ages be?
On Tuesday of this week, I had to go to church to see our Adoption Minister (and very sweet friend), Erica. Erica asked me to pray, to pray for a little boy who needs a home, Bobby. He currently lives in Jeremie at our church's orphanage. He is 3 years old and is not thriving under his current conditions. Erica asked us to pray and see if we felt that Bobby would be a good fit for our family. He is underweight and undersize, but totally on track cognitively. He will require some special TLC when he comes home. Honestly, we didn't feel a drop of hesitation. It was a solid yes!! As we prayed through the night, we got an overwhelming YES from God. I called Erica back to tell her and she told me that was all they needed. Bobby just needed a family and he would be able to be moved to his "creche"- a safe home for kids who are going to be adopted. We now know who our little boy will be!!!! It will be BOBBY!!!
For now, God has given us the opportunity to bring Bobby home and into our family. Maybe another time, maybe later, we will adopt again. But for now, who could say no to this child God has given us?

What are we doing?

So where are we in this process? First of all, you have to realize how LITTLE I really know. I mean, seriously, I have a dear friend Emily who is walking me through every single step, holding my hand too! Without her, I couldn't even pronounce Dossier (which by the way is pronounced Dah-see-ay). As you read through this, don't be surprised when a more knowledgeable friend of mine comes in and corrects me. I'm just saying, I know very LITTLE!! :)
The first step, big step, is a home study. This is, as I explained it to my school kids, an investigation of you and your household to make sure you're not a "bad person." You have to get letters of recommendation, interviews, doctors' clearance, etc. It's quite amazing! You go in for a interview (both Seth and me) then they come to your house and do separate interviews and tour your home. When they are finished, you get an 8 page report that is your life. It's quite eye-opening to read your entire existence as summed up in 8 pages!
So, we are finished with the home study- CHECK!
Next, you start furiously working to gather the paperwork for the Dossier. This is about a million papers. More doctors appointments, bank statements, letter of employment, a psychiatric evaluation (yes, I've already heard every single joke!) background checks and much more. Lots of it must be notarized, some county certified (which verifies that your notary is legit) and then a few others State Certified (which verifies that your County and Notary are legit).
In the meantime, you must send some papers into the US Gov't to get fingerprinted, get fingerprinted,get lots of things translated into French creole (Haiti's language), send it to the Haitian Consulate in Miami, wait on another form to come saying you were fingerprinted. All of that goes INTO your Dossier. You send it all to Haiti and then they decide for you. WHEW!!!
So, WHAT ARE WE DOING?
We have finished the Home Study. We have filled out all 913 of the forms needed for the Dossier. We have gotten them all notarized. We are waiting on the form to go get fingerprinted. This week, we will send our papers for translation and wait some more.
The good news is that I am really good at waiting. I am extremely patient and laid back, so this part is a real breeze for me! OK IT'S NOT!!! :) I am dying. I mean really, how long does this take??
But here's my conclusion..... none of this was my idea, none of this is my timing either. God had this plan long before I was ever told about it. He knows how it will all come out too.
I would like to ask you to pray, though.
First, please pray for my sweet kids- NO not these kids here in my house, they're FINE!! My kids in Haiti who I have not yet met. Pray for God's protection over them, that He send his angels to comfort them. Oh, and a group from our church visited the home where our kids are now yesterday (no, we don't know them still). Erica, our minister, said they were playing Christian praise music for the kids. Doesn't that just bring tears to your eyes? It did mine!
Second, please pray for this process. There are SO many hurdles and obstacles. Please pray for God's provision on this process, no lost paperwork, speedy government workers, smooth sailings.
Third- just pray for us. You know one of my favorite past times is to worry!! I heard this amazing speaker this weekend say that God told her (upon hearing bad news) to fast- to fast from WORRY! Isn't that inspirational? One day I'll try that! :) Please pray for our family as we adapt to the changes that will surely come. God will provide!

We're doing it!

So, part 2 of Am I really doing this??
About 9 months ago now, Seth and I were sitting in church. Our church had decided to build a village in Jeremie, Haiti. In that village, there would be a school, a church, and an orphanage. As time went by and the construction began, we would see new footage of the kids and the village. One Sunday in particular, there was a video that tore us both up. We cried, separately but together and went home. I knew that day that we were supposed to adopt, we were CALLED to adopt. I didn't like it ONE BIT!! I have a good life, a normal, predictable, CONTROLLED life that I have made my way! Why would I want to mess with that?
So we were sitting on the couch that afternoon and Seth said "did you feel like God was saying anything to you today at church?" I said NO. He said "really, nothing?" I said "NO, okay maybe something but I'm NOT saying it!" I didn't have to ask, I knew he had the same stinking message.... He said "well I feel like we're supposed to adopt." DANG, this is no good.
I admitted that I too was told we were supposed to adopt and again, we both cried. I spent the better part of the next 7 months in denial for the above mentioned reasons. Finally, after being tormented in my spirit, I gave in, I told God YES, I would obey.
Since that time, I cannot tell you the affirmations, the blessings, the surprises this journey has held already. It's amazing. We are such a short time into this, but already, we see the hand of God.
So, for those of you that may have felt a little (or a lot) surprised about our decision, don't feel bad. You weren't nearly as surprised as me! :)

Am I really doing this?

So, we all know I can talk, but can I type? I'm not so sure.... Martha told me several months back that I should write and I laughed. But tonight as I heard Seth telling her of our adoption details, I realized that several of you don't know where we are, what we're doing, how it's going..... I'll never forget, my sweet and hilarious mother-in-law said to us upon being told we were adopting "WHAT, the last I heard you were getting a lab, now you're getting a kid??" C- this is for you!
Here are my hangups... my friends blogs are sweet, sappy and spiritual. I don't think that any of you reading this will have to look far to know that I will be one of the more sarcastic NOT sappy blogs you've read! So, here's my catch- I will use smileys constantly. If that bothers you, I'm sorry. It will make me feel better that I've conveyed I'M JOKING so no one gets mad at me. :) See, now you know.
Oh, and feel free to delete every update or never read them. I'll never know anyway! :)