Monday, November 7, 2011


So have I mentioned that I leave in 5 days for HAITI??? I honestly can say that I cannot believe it. I cannot get my head around the fact that I get to meet and love on my sweet boy in 5 short days- which brings me to the one word I have somehow learned in French Creole- renmen. It means love. I plan on using it lots next week. I cannot explain to Bobby that someday, God willing, he will come home with me and I will be his forever mommy but I can still tell him and show him renmen. I look so forward to holding him, loving him and kissing him. What will it be like? Will I get the chance? Will we get any time- just us? Will they have to tranquilize me to get me to leave the orphanage... maybe...
I covet your prayers next week. Please pray for us all, that it is an awesome week and a safe week. Selfishly, I ask you to pray for Bobby and me. That we bond, that he feels something special with me, maybe that somehow he knows I'm someone special too.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Hearing from God but not Haiti

Well, what can I say... since I last blogged, I have heard QUITE clearly from God. Please allow me to just lay it all out for you. Last Sunday, I was feeling particularly down. I basically bawled my eyes out through the entire worship during church. I think during the rest of the week, I keep my mind so busy, I never let in thoughts of how things are moving, I just block it out. At church, during worship, it seems I can't keep it out. So there I am- boo-hooing. The sermon starts and my mom hands me her sermon outline which is titled "What to do while you're waiting." Seriously? Can God be this obvious???? Apparently He can! So Brother David delivers the perfect message for me on that particular day-
*don't assume waiting means a lack of activity on God's part
*try to find what God is teaching you
*pray and draw closer to Him during the wait.
How encouraging!
So for the last week, I've been okay, knowing that God continues to tell me HE is in COMPLETE CONTROL. He loves Bobby more than me. He is the one who brought Bobby to us, we did not find him on our own.
Today, He continued to speak. If you've been reading this blog, you know God is totally speaking to me through the story of Job. Today, Seth and I went to a fundraiser for an organization for which Seth is a board member. It was a celebration of their 20th year in service. At the end, we had heard that Nicole Mullins would be singing. I don't know if you are familiar with the song "My Redeemer Lives" but I LOVE that song. Rarely can I listen to it without crying. Today, she took the stage to sing. She began by telling us that when Job was being tested and was without his wealth or his family, he began to question God. God answered him by asking him "where were you when the heavens were created?" She told us that the passage in Job inspired her song- yep- "My Redeemer Lives". Good grief. She then sang it in a way I have never heard. It was unbelievably good. I cried and cried.
God is so good to continue to encourage and love me when all I do is look around but never UP! When will I learn to look up, when will I learn to- instead of telling God how big my problems are, to tell my problems how big my GOD is?? Maybe when I do, my sweet Bobby will be ready to come home. Maybe that is what I am supposed to learn. I am working on it, I promise!
And God--- I'm listening!

My Redeemer Lives
by Nicole C. Mullins
Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
And who told the ocean you can only come this far?
And who showed the moon where to hide till evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testifies
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives

The very same God
That spins things in orbit
Runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know, my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I-I-I know
My Redeemer

He lives
To take away my shame
And He lives
Forever I'll proclaim
That the payment for my sins
Was the precious life He gave
And now He's alive and
There's an empty Grave!

And I know
My Redeemer lives
He lives
I know
My Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I-I-I know my Redeemer

I know
My Redeemer lives
*I know my Redeemer lives*

*I know, That I know, that I know, that I know, that I know
He lives
*my redeemer lives*
*Because He lives I can face tomorrow
He lives
*I know, I know*
He lives
*I spoke with Him this morning!*
He lives
*The tomb is empty*
He lives
*He Lives! I'm going to tell everybody!!*

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Missing our boy

Tonight I am feeling a little sad. A team is leaving for Haiti on Saturday. While this is GREAT and hopefully we'll get more adorable pics of Bobby to keep us going, I had really believed that Bobby wouldn't be in Jeremie for the next group. I believed that he would be on his way home and would be in Port Au Prince with Dr. Bernard. We have gotten word that Bobby's birth certificate has been created. It is in Jeremie. Now someone in PAP has to make an extract (another form I think). Dr. Bernard then has to verify that the forms are legit and Bobby can move. This process is so amazingly slow. I know God has this whole thing in his hands. I know that, but tonight I'm still sad.
Please continue to pray for our sweet boy. Pray that he's fed, loved, safe, and that he gets moved just as soon as God wills it.
Oh and did I mention that the night I last posted- about Job and God's conversation- "where were you when I created the universe?". Yeah, that night as we read our "Read through the Bible in a Year" (which we are VERY behind on) guess what the passage was about???? Yep, you guessed it, the very same story.
Job 38- here is an excerpt:

2 “Who is this that obscures my plans
with words without knowledge?
3 Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.

4 “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.
5 Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
Who stretched a measuring line across it?
6 On what were its footings set,
or who laid its cornerstone—
7 while the morning stars sang together
and all the angels[a] shouted for joy?

8 “Who shut up the sea behind doors
when it burst forth from the womb,
9 when I made the clouds its garment
and wrapped it in thick darkness,
10 when I fixed limits for it
and set its doors and bars in place,
11 when I said, ‘This far you may come and no farther;
here is where your proud waves halt’?

12 “Have you ever given orders to the morning,
or shown the dawn its place,
13 that it might take the earth by the edges
and shake the wicked out of it?
14 The earth takes shape like clay under a seal;
its features stand out like those of a garment.
15 The wicked are denied their light,
and their upraised arm is broken.

16 “Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea
or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 Have the gates of death been shown to you?
Have you seen the gates of the deepest darkness?
18 Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.

Yes, I think that pretty much sums it up. God has this one. I just needed a little reminder and now I have it. Thanks God!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

No move yet....

I can't believe it's already August! Time has really flown by. We received word back in July that Bobby would most likely move to the Creche in August. We have been praying fervently that God would place an urgency in the hearts of those who can get him moved. We are still praying....
While we wait, so many questions pop up. Why do we have to wait so long? Why doesn't God speed this whole thing along so we can get Bobby home and love on him? Does God want to teach us something first? Does God want to prepare Bobby's heart for us? Are we supposed to learn something during this process? I don't know the answer, but God does.
I still feel a peace knowing God is in control of this whole thing. I do tend to be a little negative from time to time as I have been known to do.... :) But really, just today I heard someone say that God said to Job "where were YOU

when I formed the universe?" Pretty good point here. Where was I? Probably off worrying about whether or not I'd get my tests graded for my 5th period class. Or wait, I wasn't even around! I am so small yet so important to the maker of it ALL! He cares for me and He definitely cares for our sweet Bobby.
And, have I told you my new verse? Honestly, I chant it over and over in my mind. It's Exodus 14:14- "the LORD will fight for you, all you need do is be still." What an amazing verse. That pretty much sums it up.
I'm going to bed now, but you can bet what I'll be saying while I'm lying there wondering about my little man tonight... be still,
the maker of the universe- the LORD - will fight for you!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Handing it over to Him

So to be honest, I've been down, depressed, negative..... about the waiting period that Bobby's move is taking. We thought in Febuary-March he would move over to New Life Link. Days have come and gone and there is no move, or word of any move for that matter.
Little pieces of information will come through, they would get our hopes up or make us worry. So yesterday, in a conversation with a friend, we were in a moment of worry. And through my friend, God spoke to me. Jeannie said that she and her husband had been talking. He said to her "You know when WE try to do it OUR way, things never work out. But when we do it GOD'S way, things ALWAYS work out perfectly." Could anything be more true? Why do I insist on worrying, thinking I can control things, thinking that I know more than God?

So for today, for now, I am giving this to God. I don't want it back. I don't want to worry anymore because I don't have to. God is our defender, our provider, our Father. He always comes through, always knows best, always knows better than me! He loves Bobby even more than I do.
I'm done worrying- God has got this one!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

T-shirts are ready!

Ok, so we have really gone into fund-raising over drive here! :) Actually, Seth REALLY wanted a cool Haiti t-shirt and since he was making one he thought everyone else might want one too! They are pretty cool if I do say so myself. He ordered adult smalls-adult 2X. Let me know if you're interested. We'll get one to you! Thanks so much for your prayers and support!
By the way, to see it larger, just click on the picture!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Coffee anyone?

Did you know you can get great coffee and support an adoption too? We have set up an account with the company "Just love Coffee"- through their company, you simply order the coffee of your choice and they send us $5 out of every bag ordered. Cool, huh??
Here is the link. Thanks and enjoy!