Well, what can I say... since I last blogged, I have heard QUITE clearly from God. Please allow me to just lay it all out for you. Last Sunday, I was feeling particularly down. I basically bawled my eyes out through the entire worship during church. I think during the rest of the week, I keep my mind so busy, I never let in thoughts of how things are moving, I just block it out. At church, during worship, it seems I can't keep it out. So there I am- boo-hooing. The sermon starts and my mom hands me her sermon outline which is titled "What to do while you're waiting." Seriously? Can God be this obvious???? Apparently He can! So Brother David delivers the perfect message for me on that particular day-
*don't assume waiting means a lack of activity on God's part
*try to find what God is teaching you
*pray and draw closer to Him during the wait.
How encouraging!
So for the last week, I've been okay, knowing that God continues to tell me HE is in COMPLETE CONTROL. He loves Bobby more than me. He is the one who brought Bobby to us, we did not find him on our own.
Today, He continued to speak. If you've been reading this blog, you know God is totally speaking to me through the story of Job. Today, Seth and I went to a fundraiser for an organization for which Seth is a board member. It was a celebration of their 20th year in service. At the end, we had heard that Nicole Mullins would be singing. I don't know if you are familiar with the song "My Redeemer Lives" but I LOVE that song. Rarely can I listen to it without crying. Today, she took the stage to sing. She began by telling us that when Job was being tested and was without his wealth or his family, he began to question God. God answered him by asking him "where were you when the heavens were created?" She told us that the passage in Job inspired her song- yep- "My Redeemer Lives". Good grief. She then sang it in a way I have never heard. It was unbelievably good. I cried and cried.
God is so good to continue to encourage and love me when all I do is look around but never UP! When will I learn to look up, when will I learn to- instead of telling God how big my problems are, to tell my problems how big my GOD is?? Maybe when I do, my sweet Bobby will be ready to come home. Maybe that is what I am supposed to learn. I am working on it, I promise!
And God--- I'm listening!
My Redeemer Lives
by Nicole C. Mullins
Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
And who told the ocean you can only come this far?
And who showed the moon where to hide till evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?
Chorus:
Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testifies
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives
Ye-e-eah
The very same God
That spins things in orbit
Runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory
Now I know, my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I-I-I know
My Redeemer
He lives
To take away my shame
And He lives
Forever I'll proclaim
That the payment for my sins
Was the precious life He gave
And now He's alive and
There's an empty Grave!
And I know
My Redeemer lives
He lives
I know
My Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I-I-I know my Redeemer
I know
My Redeemer lives
*I know my Redeemer lives*
*I know, That I know, that I know, that I know, that I know
He lives
*my redeemer lives*
*Because He lives I can face tomorrow
He lives
*I know, I know*
He lives
*I spoke with Him this morning!*
He lives
*The tomb is empty*
He lives
*He Lives! I'm going to tell everybody!!*
